I’ve been working to reduce the stress in my life and not take on anymore work. The only problem with this, it gives me time to fill. What have I decided to do with this free time, start a podcast. Many of you probably are aware of the podcast by now, if not check it out (https://www.faithshaping.org/). I am really enjoying doing the podcast. I’m almost feeling inclined to expand my podcasting. I’ve considered moving my regular text blog to perhaps even an audioblog, or at least take some opportunities to include audioblog posts. I’m not sure if I’ll persue anything further or not.
I’ve really been feeling the weight of the brokenness in the world lately. You probably saw this in my blog post a couple days ago. At times I feel like I should be doing more to reach people for Christ, and maybe I should be. I feel like I’m trapped in a Christian bubble. I start thinking perhaps I ought to move soome place else, and work in the “secular” world. Don’t get me wrong, it can be so amazing at times to be able to freely talk about spiritual matters during breaks and at other times at my work. The problem is there can be too much talk and not enough action. I want to be used by God to reach this ever-growing broken world. I don’t know where God is leading me, and I’m not going to be up a moving tomorrow, but I feel like a change needs to be made in my life.
I know I need to be updating the “world-at-large” as to my little trip to the Twin Cities this past weekend. It’s kind of becoming public that there is some special in my life. NOW, this is not to be made more than what it really is at this point. Our situation is an interesting one. We are dealing with a distance problem. I’m not sure how that will be worked out, only God knows that. We’re also both looking keep our eyes fix on God’s leading in our own lives. And if it is His plan that our journey’s should be moved together as one, then that will become apparent in His time. We both had a wonderful weekend, and were glad to have had the oppportunity to spend some actual time together. I’ve actually already planned on making a trip to visit her in April. We’re both just looking to develop our friendship and see where God leads it. BTW, if you checkout my podcast you’ll get to hear a little of Vanessa as she so graciously took part in my last episode. If you want to know more you’ll have to just post those as comments on here. She reads my blog, if you haven’t guessed it by now, and she’ll maybe respond to you directly. One other thing, there are some photos posted from the weekend in the photos section of the blog, peruse at your pleasure.
Since the weekend I’ve really been struggling to catch up on sleep. I got very little this past weekend and I’ve been trying to catch up on other things now that I’m back too. I’m still operating with sleep defficiency. I don’t know if this was partly why yesterday ended up being such a crummy day. I really didn’t get as much done at work that I wanted too, although that seems to be a never ending story. And then as I began working on preparing for praise team practice I ran into a whole bunch of problems finding sheet music for the songs that were picked out, then to top things off my printer decided it was going to stop working. Later that night I come to discover that apparently one of the ports on my Linksys router seems to be dead, one more thing that now needs fixing. Practice time went ok, but could have been way better if I had felt/been more prepared. The positive side of last night was the time I got to hang out with Tommy O. at Perkins afterwards. He’s a great kid, and it’s always fun to hear what’s going on in his life.
So what has God been teaching me lately. Well, for starters that only He’s in control. This is something it seems I continue to have to learn over and over again. My life is not my own, it is His. It can be so easy, if for even just brief moments, to take our lives back in our own hands. Everyday I have to make a concience decision to give it all to Him. If I try to manage my own life it only becomes a mess. Along with this, I can definitely see why the semi-circle (Life Shape) is so important for our lives. I have been suffering from a lack of rest, and abiding in Christ. I think I’ll stop there as I feel good content for the podcast coming on.
Well, there’s just a small glimpse of where things are at for me these days. I so miss the daily blog posts. I always enjoyed having the time to process my days. That was really a part of apply the learning circle, another thing that requires constant work. I think as Christians it can be so easy to think that we can actually make accomplishments where our spiritual walk is concerned. There really are only brief accomplishments, but even the things we learn or experience seem like they have to come around again. How easy it is for us to forget. They say that we only use 10% of our brain. It would seem that the 10% is merely a funnel into the 90% we don’t use. That’s were everything get’s lost and clouded. I’ll stop now, not only cause this post has gone on forever, but also my lunch time is coming to an end. Valete!