Where’s My 48 Hour Day?

The semi-circle, working from rest, following your purpose, and bringing calm to life. It seems nearly impossible to not get caught up in the crazy & busy world we live in. Even in ministry there seems to more things to do, or that could be done, then there is time. None of these things are bad, and it feels like they are so important. In the whole scope of it all, the things we spend our time on can feel pointless in terms of enternity. I have things I would like to do for myself, but those things tend to get put aside so that I can try to “do it all” for others. It seems like a blessing and a curse. And then you through my personality into the mix, a perfectionist & procrastinator. It surprises me at times how my own thoughts and traits fight against each other. Now, I’m not talking about the ever-present battle with self and the sin nature, I’m just talking about this oddity I have of being at odds with myself. I guess it is somewhat battling against self, but there are times when I battle with myself, and both sides are good. People say it is right to take time for yourself now & then. I think this is true, yet I find myself battling against it, putting my needs aside to meet the needs of others. On the other hand, there is nothing wrong with wanting to help others, or even giving up your own desires to meet the needs of others, God calls us to be servants. Well, I feel as though I’m babbling on. I need to be heading to bed.

You’ll see, from the previous photo post, that I am now an uncle. Congrats to my brother & sister-in-law.

I have a load, lol…I say that a lot apparently…anyways, I have a load of things I’d like to write about but my eyes are getting heavy, and it would be nice to get up and have some time before I head to work tomorrow. Nite, all!

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2 Comments

  1. (just a thought from an IPBC guy..)
    Congrats on being an Uncle!

    Sometimes I feel like completely letting go of myself and wholely giving myself to the needs of others. Then, when people tell me that thinking of myself is normal,or natural, or okay, I feel selfish… But, since I can’t seem to completely let go of myself for longer than an hour of two, that’s something I’ll have to work on over the next few years.

    i just wanted to mention how I appreciate your “babbling.” God bless!

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