I know that morning will come too soon, I’ve got to be to work by 5am, but once again I find myself searching. I love how God is always tugging at me and wanting to stretch, and most of all asking me to continue on the path towards Him. Something that has been pulling at me for the past month is my concern that I’ve began living my life for myself. I struggle with Paul’s warning against getting married, and I can see already how my life is about to change. I will no longer have the freedom I once did to serve God and think of nothing else. I’m getting married in a little over 2 weeks and I will have someone in my life that is only second to God in my life. I am in no way regretting getting married, quite the opposite I can’t wait! I do find myself questioning how I’m serving God each day.
When I look back to my days over a year ago I see a totally different life. I was pouring myself into youth and yearning to have God change my life in amazing ways. These days I find myself plugging away at work and occasionally giving a hand at church. I wonder, have I lost site of what’s most important? Have my own desires of a wife caused me to forget what God has really called us all here to do? Tonight at our Family Life Ministries gathering we were challenged spiritually so that we could be the leaders God had called us to be. I was even honored for my service at Daybreak. I felt like there were so many others more worth to be honored than me. So many others there were pouring there lives into other people, all I was doing playing with a sound board.
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Just wanted to make a quick post. My days, Monday & Tuesday, were crazy busy. On the other hand both evenings were kind of lazy on my part. Monday I did try working on recording some music. That would have been better if I ended up actually having something to show for the time I spent. I sort of had something, probably was trying to add in some percussion loops to what I had recorded. I ended up having my own timing on what I recorded. Well, of course I didn’t save each take as a seperate recording session, GarageBand still seems a bit odd to work with at times. Last night I just worked on trying to update some software both on the podcast site and on my computer. I also spent some time on the phone. I watched a movie that I picked up over the weekend. It’s another 80′s geek movie, Real Genius, starring a young Val Kilmer. It’s got a great combination of geekiness and comedy. Well, back to work I head, plenty to do. Just wanted to give a quick update on life. Still trying to get a good handle on the learning circle this week. I guess perhaps the good thing is that I’ve been intentionally thinking about the learning circle, but my devotions haven’t been topics that I’ve been given opportunities to act on. As I just think about this, I believe I’m forgetting to truely apply the learning circle. I haven’t posted about my devotions or talked with anyone about them. I haven’t been getting to the “discussion” aspect of the learning circle. I guess there is an obvious key here that I’m missing, no wonder I feel like I haven’t gone anywhere. Well, I would say that tomorrow I’ll have to make a point of posting my thoughts on my morning devotions. I had done this for a time in the past, and it was good to get feedback from others. I’ll have to work on doing this again. This will of course require me to get to bed at a decent time so I have enough time before work to do all of this. Well, I’m really getting going here and need to stop. Valete(good bye)!
Well, I finaly made it up early today, and I had my time with God. What an incredible difference that makes. I feel like I got a lot accomplished today at work. I still have a pretty busy work day tomorrow but God has shown me the light. Tonight I was able to get yet another project completed. It looks like by next weeks end I should finally have my head above the water. I’m so thankful for the prayers and support I’ve gotten from people.
It just came to mind that I’ve experienced a kairos moment. So in light of the learning circle it would seem I have done a bit of observation, reflection, & discussion on this moment. In order to complete the circle and get the full benefit of the Lord’s teaching I need to now make a plan, find someone to hold me accountable to it, and act on it. Some of this has already played out in getting my out of the mess that I got myself in. However, the other way to step through these, and actually learn something, it to put into motion the things to keep this from happening again.
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Something that came up at our Life Shapes meeting this morning, was the subject of mission. This is something that I’ve been sort of struggling with, in that I’m trying to determine what my mission should be. I think this brings me back to the Purpose Driven Life. I have felt, for a long time, that my heart is for youth. This has been what has drawn me to my years working at Inspiration Point, and my current involvement with the Bethel youth. I’m not sure how the Missional Community of Faith and my heart for youth might be tied together. This is something that I’ll be looking for God’s direction in, as is life in general. Well, this is just s short post. Let’s hope I can get back into more regular posts.