I’ve known for a long time that I’m a perfectionist and a planner. This had always been both a strength and a great weakness for me. The major weakness is that I’m always trying to figure out God’s plan and I turn my perfectionism into unrealistic expectations of others. Also my perfectionism takes a lot of joy out of life. It means that unless it’s perfect I’m not happy, and the kicker is that it most likely 9 times out of 10 it isn’t going to be perfect. That’s a pretty sad way to live honestly.
Add to the perfectionism the desire to always have a plan makes life pretty difficult as things more often than not don’t go according to the plan. Reading through the study today, and listening to John’s words in the video was a real eye opener for me. For the past 4 months I’ve been searching for the plan, searching for what’s next in my life. And I think for the most part I’ve been trying to figure it out on my own.
John’s revealing words: “No one gets the master plan. If you did you go do it, and sometimes you check back with God.”; “You don’t have to be the strongest man, because you have God.”. Woah, how those words hit me, and challenge me, and start to bring me to a place where maybe I can start enjoying the adventure of this life that God has given me.